The Words I'll Never Say
Alaska Lane2022

at the very root of it all, the truth is that
i didn’t know how to accept myself. i was never taught how to.
i always felt painfully misunderstood
like a star that accidentally fell to earth.

labelled a mistake and torn apart until i had nothing left.
i lost myself in a war i unwillingly fought against the world.

there was nothing i could’ve done to make it okay
or convince her there was a light waiting for her at the end of her pain.
but although she’s gone, although she can’t read this,
i tried to honor her memory through writing down what i had left of her.
i made these pages into a place for her soul to rest.
and i told the world all the things she wasn’t able to convey.

Titre original : The Words I'll Never Say (2022)